I once went to this medium’s workshop about ‘learning to love letting go’.
It was very short notice and seemed as though it wasn’t meant to be. All the spots were filled when I reached out to her but the day before.
Randomly someone couldn’t make it at the last minute so I got a unknown call while I was huffing and puffing at the gym. I almost didn’t answer and totally forgot about that workshop but something in me told me to answer so I did and I was immediately confused at what to do.
I am not good at plans being sprung on me when I haven’t mentally prepared for them. But it was like fate was telling me to go. So I anxiously went. I thought it was so cool how she “the medium or psychic” said she was compelled to notify me of the sudden opening.
I started to think I was special and that maybe she would have some more things she was compelled to tell me even tho it wasn’t that king of workshop.
She didn’t offer any kind of soul comforting, path conformation or advise to me personally like I was hoping but that costs money. So I guess I wasn’t special enough to have them her offer it up for free like the spirits were compelling her like I have seen on the Long Island medium.
Please tell me…{me} you don’t really believe that lady on tv?!?
Anyways one think I took from the workshop was the medium did say something about how every one creates a life for themselves/ our story. Because in heave or the spirit world or whatever, every thing is so easy and peaceful and boring. So we create a pre-birth plan. To help us grow and have experience that make us who we are meant to be.
The medium said to look at all the bad in your life and instead of think “why is this happening to me” think “what am I supposed to learn from this”
Im really currently trying to figure out what I am supposed to learn / grow from everything going on in my life right now.
Tomorrow is Christmas even and my dog could very well be needing to be put down tomorrow. She hasn’t eaten since Tuesday I believe and watching her continue to refuse food and have no energy is a terrible thing to watch. I have already spent $200 at the vet and all her blood work is normal so tomorrow I’ll most likely be spending big bucks (I don’t have/ hello more debt) on more serious tests and after all that I’ll probably have to spend more just to humanely put her down.
She is my best friend and a big part of my daily routine and happiness.
She is my distraction from my terrible relationship with my boyfriend which I can’t seem to find a way out of.
So I just keep asking my self if what that medium lady says is true why the FUCK did I choose all this to be happening to me right now with tomorrow being Christmas Eve.
Just what am I supposed to learn from this.
Maybe that taking a Xanax,a bath, and writing is a good way to calm down for a hour before I try an sleep in a bit before the madness of tomorrow begins of trying to figure out what’s wrong with my furchild.
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